Tuesday, June 29, 2010
I've always wanted to be beautiful. Not beautiful in a normal "wow she's beautiful" way. Beautiful in a "people will stop and stare as I walk down the street" way. I want to be a face the people remember, a body that women would kill to have.
But I'll tell you another little thing. I've accepted, mostly, that this isn't what I'm destined to have, and I won't have it. Why? Because it's unrealistic. I'm sure those kind of beauties exist, but I'm not one of them. There's not much of a market for brown haired, brown eyed, olive skinned girls in the Great Beauty world. I'll settle for regular beauty. So I work for it. Why? Who knows. I want to be liked, I suppose.
For years, I thought that, if I were beautiful, people would like me, and everything in my life would fall into place. I suppose that grew and morphed and now I accept every rejection in my life as a physical failing. I think "If only I were prettier, XYZ would be different".
Understandably, this means I don't take rejection very well. So I tend to need a LOT of encouragement if I'm going to do anything remotely resembling telling a guy I like him or something like that. It's not that I'm a coward, because I'm not. I'm just... More nervous about stuff like that than I should be.
Anyways, I'm losing the point.
The point is that I think it's good to be a regular pretty girl rather than some ultimate supreme beauty. I'd rather be beautiful inside than outside, and I can make myself that way. Beauty, as many notable people have said, isn't just skin deep. It's a way of bearing yourself, a way of showing kindness to everyone you meet, of being gracious and graceful and extending love. So that's what I think I'll endeavor to do even more now than ever before.
So this blog post is for me as well as for you, to hold me accountable to this.
I won't get discouraged anymore, and I will try at all times to be as beautiful inside as I possibly, possibly can.
Saturday, June 26, 2010
Hmmm. I'm trying to think of a good way of phrasing this. I'm not rich. I'm not poor, either, but I'm certainly not in the same economic class as many of the people who live in my town. By this town's standards, I'm lower-class. So, it's a little painful when I see things I want, I want BAD, but I can't afford. Even when I (eventually) get a job, that money's going to go towards going to college, not towards getting pretty things.
What brought this up is that I've been shopping for a new bathing suit recently. Not because I desperately need a new one. I don't. It's more of a keeping-up-with-the-Joneses thing. My friends can buy beautiful new bathing suits and clothes and such, and I wear the same bathing suit I've been wearing for three years. It's not an ugly bathing suit and I don't wear it much, so it's not like it's worn out or anything really. To be honest, it looks pretty good on me. But there are times when, for me, I'm ashamed to wear the same thing over and over again. I'm ashamed of my plain navy bathing suit, even though there's nothing wrong with it.
The mother of one of my best friends <3 asked me about bathing suits, because I was sitting with my friend as she was buying a bathing suit from Victoria's Secret, and I said my mom was getting me one from the Bon-Ton. Well, actually it ended up having to be one I didn't like nearly as much from Walmart, I think. I've settled.
So yes, I wear the same clothes I bought in 8th grade. Cool. I wear clothes that my friends gave me after they were done with them (and I love them a lot). I wear hand me downs and giveaways and DIY'd clothing. I don't know why this makes me feel ashamed or like I'm less of a person or less worthwhile or less... Something, but it does.
I guess it's something to think about. I try not to be bitter or covetous but it's really really hard sometimes. I think writing all of this out has helped a bit actually. Hm...
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Today I'm writing for a different friend because I like her! This friend ia a PEAR shape. Like me! (well, I'm slim so I can lie and say I'm an hourglass as long as I don't gain weight. XD)
Because the Pear is smaller on top, she can get away with wearing all sorts of fancy patterns and fancy necklines. All those shirts with ruffles on the neck or built in folds that make normally-sized girls look HUUUGE? You can wear them and not look ridiculous! It's great!
WIDE, DRAPED NECKLINES:
Wide, draped necklines look good on you, too, Pear! They accentuate the bust and draw attention to your face and neck, as well as making them look more elegant and graceful. Look for draped necklines, wide necklines, V-neck shirts, scoop neck, boat neck tops, anything really, that leaves a lot of area wide on your collarbone area. Also, collarbones are sometimes considered to be one of the sexiest parts of a woman's body, so there's that too. XD
I'm not too keen on the color of this shirt, but it does show what i want it to! :D It drapes and moves right for what I wanted to show. All those folds and drapes and stuff! Mmm.
Do we have to talk about our bottom halves...?
Yes. Yes we do. It's okay, Pear. You're ~womanly~. All those curves down south? They're cool because they mean you can have lots of healthy babies. Which means that boys see that subconsciously and are like O__O HOT.
Wear dark colors on the bottom (so darkwashed jeans, dark trousers/skirts anything else).
Wide legged pants help to hide your thighs a bit, and they also make your whole figure look more balanced in general. Remember: Balance. High waisted jeans will make you look rounder there, so I wouldn't go with those unless you're sure you can pull them off. Mid-rise jeans are best, with plain pockets and seams. Adding visual interest there just makes your hips look wider, after all.
Look at those nice jeans. Yes ma'am!
A-line and flared skirts look best on pear shapes because they don't cling to the hips and instead skim right over them to show off your (usually) buttkicking calves and such. Once more, go for simple, dark styles. Here's a place where you can get away with high waisted clothes, so run with it to play up those pretty tops!
Obviously, her colors are backwards but that's okay because her skirt's so plain and her top is patterned.
Well, shoes aren't accessories, but pointed shoes will make your figure look longer and more elegant. Avoid stilettos, but go with nicer elegant heels, and seriously don't wear chunky shoes, since they'll make you look, well, chunky! Remember, open toed shoes look better than closed-toed shoes (and they're good for painted toenails!)
As a Pear, you can wear lots of accessories successfully, so run with the layered necklaces because they'll add visual interest at your bust, which makes your figure more balanced. Don't go crazy though!
GOOD LUCK! :D